Pa Pa How are you ?

I am depressed today. Surf the net and decided to visit Dad's blog and read the journal we wrote for him. I teared and kept tearing when I read this part..

"It only lasted for a while, slowly slowing his breathing gets weaker & weaker and he ended his breathing at 225pm. Dad has passed away peacefully with all his children, my mum & relative around his bed. He wanted to live much longer but he cannot. He fight the illness bravely for one year. We rode the difficult times together with him and now he is gone. I still feel that he is around us, he has not leave us. I miss him badly. I have no chance to call him pa pa, no more chance to taste his good cooked food. He will not call us anymore to ask are you coming back for dinner, today your payday rem give me money, we will not get angry anymore with him for smoking, he cannot see how his grandchildren grow up, he cannot accompany mum to market on weekends, he cannot watch the next world cup with us "

Praying at Toa Payoh Temple

The last time we pray to dad was during father's day. On Sunday 9Sep, we visited dad and bot him laksa, coffee and mooncake.

Aston made a comment to Lianting.
Here's their conversation :
A : Xiaoyi, dun be sad later when you bai bai to wai gong. Dun cry, ok.
L : I will not cry
A : Let's see later
Oh my, Aston is really attentive to our expressions and so he remembers what happen the last visit. We chuckled over this interesting conversation.

Mum again remind Lianting not to visit dad so often and to only remember him in our hearts. But Lianting seems not to agree to mum's advice and she will continue visit dad regularly.

881 Movie

Last night, we (Mum, Jie, me, Lianting and Richmond) went to watch Movie 881@Tampines Mall GV. This is I think the 1st movie I watch with them. Though tickets are expensive, we enjoyed the show alot. Esp we keep humming the song "Yi Ren Yi Ban". We also cried when we heard the song sang by late Chen Jin Lang on his hospital song. It reminded us abt dad.



Listen to some of their songs here:
十二连花 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mupnIQJoIY
野花不要采 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiRnT2q-z9Y
一人一半 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ForZY9Zj5gQ

Chao Du

Time really passed so fast. Dad has passed away for one yr. Wonder how is he now and what he is doing. Cannot help to miss him. The family members miss him in different ways ; Lianting visit dad 3 times per week in the Toa Payoh temple, she told me just few weeks back she cannot get used to the daily 3pm to talk to dad and now that dad is no longer around, her miss is intense so she decided to visit him and talk to him in the temple. I cried inside when I hear this. Becos I was pregnant, somehow my miss for dad is minimised cos I have a big tummy to take care.
Mum's miss for dad is the continued nags that dad did not blessed him to strike 4D or TOTO. Mum lost someone so dearly to her and no longer can't nag personally. Two weeks ago, we participated in the yearly Chao Du at Xian Gu temple. We are happy cos this is the only time and chance we can talk to dad and get to know his well-being. Xian Gu told Gor Kim that dad is very very sad and cant bear to return to their homes, we teared when we hear this. Dad is still around us, he cannot bear to leave us but what can we do. He has left us and that is the fact.