Pa Pa How are you ?

I am depressed today. Surf the net and decided to visit Dad's blog and read the journal we wrote for him. I teared and kept tearing when I read this part..

"It only lasted for a while, slowly slowing his breathing gets weaker & weaker and he ended his breathing at 225pm. Dad has passed away peacefully with all his children, my mum & relative around his bed. He wanted to live much longer but he cannot. He fight the illness bravely for one year. We rode the difficult times together with him and now he is gone. I still feel that he is around us, he has not leave us. I miss him badly. I have no chance to call him pa pa, no more chance to taste his good cooked food. He will not call us anymore to ask are you coming back for dinner, today your payday rem give me money, we will not get angry anymore with him for smoking, he cannot see how his grandchildren grow up, he cannot accompany mum to market on weekends, he cannot watch the next world cup with us "