More than words can say

It's been long time since I dreamt of you. At times I will think how you are in the other world. Did you eat well and are you lonely ? Feel so sad not able to know your well being.

These are some words from Lianting, Richmond, Shuang and Ping : -

Dad Birthday coming

LT : I wonder....is it true we can't celebrate a deceased person's Birthday? I recalled, we did not celebrate our Dad's birthday last Dec after he passed away in July 06. 11 Dec is Dad's birthday, I remembered singing him a Birthday song in my heart last Dec, the inside pain is unbearable and no ones know about this. Everyone in the family feels for my Dad and misses him in different ways, we don't share openly and don't really bring up his name when we gather every weekend. Something is missing somewhere for me but this is something which I need to accept. I miss Dad in my silence ways, also don't share openly and never thought of updating in Dad's blog. Today, suddenly I have the urge to volunteer to update my inner feelings here.

Shuang : yes i share the same thoughts, everyone of us remember and miss dad in different way, and no one wants to bring it up openly. and yes, perhaps last year on his birthday, everyone just dun wish to bring up it's dad's birthday, i only told xf that it's my dad's birthday but didn't 'remind' you all about it.

Rich : I guess for me, when LT mentioned, she was abit down he was no longer with us but on the other hand, we should also celebrate his life and what he has done for the family.
I believe what he has done for the family was the best he knew how and brought up 4 lovely daughters and a son. His patience and tolerance towards each member of the family can be seen, even myself through my initial introduction to the family. These are his virtues and he is blessed to have them to compliement mother's character and the family's.

Shuang : my thoughts is dad definitely has his shortcomings which alot of time we were pretty upset over it and alot of time we over-react to it, but come to think of it, now i personally think more of his goodness than his shortcomings, i think of how honest my dad is and how his honesty deeply print in my mind and i still remember that i actually wrote him in one of my composition during my primary school days regarding how honest my dad is when he picked up a pack of $$ and hand it over to the police instead of keeping it for himself, and how he told us 'we can be poor but never be greedy'. and i think of how much he love everyone of us without showing favouritism. and i think of how much support he has given me during my confinement days when having keith. and i think of during my days working in fritz logistics that he fry rice early in the morning for me to bring to work for my lunch almost everyday, and his daily phone calls without fail everyday to ask if i'm going back to eat (and even ridiculously tell me dun go back my in-laws' place for dinner when i told him i can't go back on every thursday), and i think of how jie forced me to return her $$ and dad push $100 to me because he know i dun have pocket $$ for the rest of the month.... i can't continue to write anymore....as i'm getting emotional.....

LT : my tears has rolled down liao.Shuang seldom share and this piece of sharing is marvellous i can say!
I also recalled how Dad in his low and unable to speak clearly state, repeatly told mum at least 2 to 3 times to leave me & richmond all the $$ he left after he died. He really so loving and caring towards all of us.

Shuang : yes with just that little $$ he has he just want to give all to you, hoping to help you in any way he can, and maybe that could ease his worry a little. i strongly believe he's blessing us now in whatever ways he can, if we believe we can feel it.

LT : at that moment, i was so touched and held back my tears but Mum made my tears rolled down when she asked Dad if he wants to continue to get red packet from her next year(which is this year), Dad gently answered her: "Yes"
yes, i also believe he's giving us his blessing, may he bless me & Rich a child when is the right time. Dad will be the first one to know the Good news.

Ping : I really wanted to share that I was telling mum yesterday while am rocking Charlton "how nice if dad is around & he can see my twins. mum's reply is it's all er gu gu fault.

LT : ya, mum still have grudges against er gu gu however, she never show disrespectful when see er gu gu. somehow, we don't have proof against her so can't do and talk much, not fair to her